I feel "it" coming on. And by "it" I mean me being unsettled. Every so often I go through a stage where I want to make big changes - new house, new car and new job. My mind starts going in ten million different directions and I jump from one idea to the next. Sometimes I get off easy - like repainting the house while sometimes I up and move my wedding date to nine months earlier than what was initially planned. Let me be clear, I am not unhappy with my life, but I always wonder if maybe I am missing something. I like change and I like getting ready for something big. My poor husband tries to go with the flow when "it" comes on. It usually passes in a few days, but in the meantime I feel all jittery and scattered. I know I sound crazy, but at least (in most cases) I can control these urges. So here is what I am thinking (at least for now or in the last five minutes).
I should sale my house, so that I could pay off debt. Thus allowing Kev and me to adopt again.
Maybe we not only sale the house, but move (somewhere warm) in hopes that the economy would be better. It makes sense. If we are going to move we need to do so before Jordi starts school.
Maybe I don't need to sale the house. What if I apply for a bunch of adoption loans and grants, then we could adopt again.
The reality of the situation is --
The housing market is so bad that now is not a good time to sale our house.
I have a great job, so I really hate to move away and lose it.
Kev and I would really like to adopt again, but now is not really the time. Once Kev goes back to work and we get a little money in savings then we could consider it.
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You do get on tangents! At the beginning of this you sound a little bi-polar, but then you talk yourself through it. Although, I think your recent ideas are derived from trying to give yourself a better life. Maybe keep your options open for now...especially about the moving to a warmer area:)
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